I can't even look at the calendar because to me it is unfathomable that in 2 and a half weeks I'll be 22. Nearly 6 months have gone by already in 2009? We're half way done 2009? WHAT THE. I feel like I have accomplished nothing in the first 6 months of this year. I still have 6 more to go, right? Not all is lost. If a career in acting seemed impossible a year and a half ago when I first moved out here - now, with the recent economy and even less opportunities for the struggling actor, it seems much more realistic to become an online blogging sensation rather then a paid professional. In terms of acting, I have discovered that I want to do comedies. TV, Web Mini Series, Mockumentaries, Films, Shorts... doesn't matter, I just want to make you laugh. Studying at Playhouse West with the legendary Mr. Robert Carnegie was an amazing experience. He lives, breathes, and talks acting. He couldn't be doing anything else. Thats the kind of mentor you need in any career. He produces fantastic actors (James Franco, Ashley Judd, Michelle Pfeiffer, Wentworth Miller, Chace Crawford...and the list goes on) however, the acting he requires of his disciples is soul bearing, stripped to your core, naked in front of everyone kind of exposure - because that's what moves people. You have to be very vulnerable to everything - letting that guard down is incredibly frightening. I feel like I could do that better through music. A cute quote from Benjamin Button, "It's not the song you play, it's how you feel when you play it." Expressing myself through song makes me vulnerable in a different way - now I just need to get on a stage more often. I have also been throwing around the idea of going back to school. It would only be part time and only classes I am interested in. I have discovered how passionate I am about religious studies, philosophy, and psychology (specifically human development). Here's a list of things I want to do...now. I WANT IT ALL NOW!
-Act in a comedy
-Sing on a stage
-Work with Amnesty International for Human Rights
-Study a couple classes at Santa Monica College-Foster homeless dogs
-Fight for Schapelle Corby
-Take dance lessons
-And somehow work in between all of this?!
...oh yah, and I don't have a car.
Phew. It's all about the climb.
Well, cars aren't good for climbing anyway! ;-)
ReplyDeleteThat's an admirable set of goals. I hope you achieve them all.
Jus, come back to Toronto and we'll make a comedy web-series together! hahaha
ReplyDeleteDon't get discouraged by the lack of work now - soon the recession will be over and the industry will be booming again :)
You can do it baby! You have the looks, charm and most importantly, the talent! :)
Ana
I feel the same way about the time. How is it even possible that 2009 is halfway over? Keep your head up :).
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